Do we accept things that happened in a sudden without questioning? Without knowing the truths? And how do we convince ourselves to accept them?

Why? Why it's gotta be me? Tragic! Do I just have to accept it? Can’t understand what went wrong. Can’t understand why I’m screwed. Can’t understand why I love him so much. I try very hard to convince myself there's no reason. A person's changed is changed. Nothing’s gonna do about it. Nothing matters anymore.

There’s gotta be an end. Everything. Except my family. I love them. I know I’m loved. I gotta be strong for them. But I’m not, not right now. Losing someone I love most in my life is an agony. Utterly devastating. Having been with him for 4 years. A bit more than that, he's been in my life for longer. There have been a lot of changes "in me" these years, no matter good or bad.

Last time we split up, it took me more than 6 months to get better, though we went back together after. It’s never been easy to get over from him. Not even this time. We’re still young. We not each other's first one, nor last one. but he's the first one gave me so much happiness, shared everything, let me know a lot about loving one you love the most. He’s the first one I’d wanna spend my life with.

Time heals. But does not wash away my tears or memories. Instead, leaves wounds to be scars.

魚對水說: 我永遠不會離開你, 因為離開你, 我無法生存.

水對魚說: 我知道, 可是如果你的心不在呢?

我不是魚, 你也不是水.

我不離開你是因為我愛你. 可是, 你的心裡有我嗎?